I have learned
that only you can define yourself," imagine you live with someone who
suffers from mental disorders," regardless of you being right or wrong,
you will be punished. How do you find truth, when your caregivers have none
themselves The only truth that I could know, was how I felt about myself. See
you can be beaten, within an inch of your life, but the real pain comes from
believing you are unworthy.
So I treated
abuse with sarcasm and with every wrongful happening I separated myself from
the narrative that, “I am tainted and deserve to be extinguished." In fact,
sarcasm grants the weak, leverage in the face of power. Diminishing the status of the abuse while developing
with understanding, that you do not need to allow abuse, no matter if it is
mental or physical for the sake of someone's perception of themselves.
Under this
tutelage was the base in which my perceptions were built. We all have laws
within us, beneath the skin. The world seeks to have you sacrifice your beliefs,
your laws, your truth and conform to it's.
For example, I
am a man nothing more, nothing less; I strive to understand my purpose or
reason for being here. The world seeks to define my purpose, because when I was
born I was just me, but the world sees me as Black, Educated, Soft spoken,
Weak, rash and an endless list of definitions every day, more and more,
Democrat a Neo-Conservative.
Luckily, I
learned at an early age; I did not need to subscribe to the definitions that
others put on me. Could you imagine a world, in which the narrative of your
life was written by others? I couldn't and you shouldn't. As a youth, I was
labelled fatherless, impoverished and colored, this narrative alone would have
sentenced me or anyone in my situation to a life of pain and misery.
So, if you
don't like the current narrative that others put on you don't subscribe to it,
change it, you don't have to be what everyone says. Even If you are telling
yourself you can't then you have permission to silence yourself.
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